One
student asked me recently, considering that I often “poke fun at the Anglican
church” will I consider serving elsewhere. Actually, that question caught me by
surprise. I didn’t realize it was that obvious that I’ve been “poking fun” or
rather being critical of the Anglican Church. My reply? I told her, as long as
God wants me here, I will be here till He instructs me elsewhere. Guess what? I
was surprised at MY REPLY! I m still reflecting on why I am serving on the
platform of the Anglican Church. It’s been seven years. It has ALWAYS been
because of the OA ministry. But today I stand at a cross-road – spiritually. I
hv been anticipating a change in ministry/spirituality since the start of this
year n the waiting has not been easy. Recently, during one Sunday worship when
I visited a local church, I was convicted to re-visit the discipline of fasting
– huh? This is Penang leh...but I comply. Once a week till the Lord tells me to
stop. And I hope He instructs me to stop soon. I so need a certainty of the direction
of my ministry. So, why am I in the Anglican Church? I m still waiting – I’m
sure it has to be more than the OA ministry. To learn conformity, perhaps? For
a born rebel like me who is “obsessed” with doing things differently? But I’m
certainly not learning my lesson.
July
was a slow month. The class in SAM Pg Prai began with Theology II. The class in
SAM Pg SP attempted the intensive approach with the TOPAD study. I “cut-short”
my sessions from 5 to 4 days. SP was “boring” for whatever reason, I wasn’t
able to work comfortably when not in class. It could be the type of
music/environment in the malls where I took “work” to during the day. Food
wasn’t as good too. Still have August to prepare September n October classes as
it is going to be another pretty monotonous month.
The
intensive diploma class in SAM Ipoh in July did not go well. Although 8
registered, only 4 turned up. Please pray for our team as we plan to meet with
the OA students to find out what it is that is de-motivating them to commit. It’s
been bothering me. In fact, been having sleepless
nights n hyper active thinking over it as I tossed n turned at most nights. To
be honest, I’ve been asking the Lord if I’ve “lost it” n ought to consider
doing something else. Or am I missing “some thing, some where...”? Is lonely
here, terribly lonely...
A
small-scale Bible School in Sabah (KK n Pitas) is considering partnering us.
SAM South is still in planning. Do pray with us as we explore these two
possibilities.
Greatly
appreciate your partnership in prayer for us. Thanks
SB
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